most of the time when i can’t sleep it’s because i have so many thoughts running around in my brain and i can’t turn my mind off. usually all my thoughts correspond to all the issues in my life. so what i do is picture physical representations of all my issues; i imagine my engineering textbooks, or my code, or the boys complicating my life, or my work. and then i picture them in this large white expanse, and i imagine the boys walking away, and i imagine my code compiling and linking successfully, and then the textbooks disappear, and my timesheet is filled with hours i worked, and the white room folds up recursively until it becomes a tiny white dot. and then it disappears, and my issues are temporarily at bay, and i can sleep.
this did not work last night.
sometimes i fold up the room but i can still feel one particular thought pushing and pushing to take up space in my mind and keep me up all night.
i haven’t figured out how to deal with that yet.
